“The things that fascinate me the most about mathematics are logical thought and the great importance attached to the correctness of propositions. Every step made during calculations is conclusive and mathematicians don’t like to make false statements. This is the reason why people from this particular domain contemplate longer before they respond to questions.
Recently I read a sentence in a book which summarizes all this fascinating stuff to me succinctly: ‘mathematics is the purest form of thought.’” - Barbara Meier
Stuff like this reignites the celebrity crush I have for Barbara Meier.
Even if the pain of loving you turns into a physical one, makes me sick and my heart race… even if missing you drives me crazy will I not regret loving you. Because you are an extraordinary person, one of the kind you don’t find everyday. People like you are rare, a pressure and that is why I am so glad that I realized it. That I saw you and your brilliance.
Even if the thought of not seeing you again, of never being near you again scares me, awakens my tears and takes my breath, well at least did I share some time with you.
At least do I now know that you exist.
As the memory will fade the pain will vanish and the yearning will decay.
But because those precious memories will be everything left of you I hope they’ll stay a while. Rather will I drown in pain and misery than live without those moments in my head.
Even although it can hardly be enough I want to thank you for giving me them to remember.
You are perfect to me. The way my heart speeds up when I’m near you, the way I hold my breath when you look at me, and how you always appear in my thoughts, even if there is no room for you… I really don’t know how to explain this.
You are the sweetest man I’ve ever known. No matter what you do I’m amazed anyway. After all the time we know each other I still can’t name one thing I dislike about you. But because there is no chance- not even the slightest- and because it gets foolish waiting on someone like you since I am no one better than me, I’m almost begging for some flaws and a bad behaviour of you. Something which would not only destroy all of my childish hopes but would also make me stop loving you. Because somehow you out of all people are the first guy which I really desire to be with without feeling afraid and the first one worth fighting for. To be honest I believe you are the most awesome, most fasciating and most phenomenal lovely man who exists. I don’t know how to improve you… except… well I’d like it if you had a puppy, but… you know what I mean? I feel so save, so comfortable around you. I could talk to you for hours or just listen to you. And worst of all: I can’t stop talking about you if I get the chance to since you are always on my mind.
How do I make this stop? It is not smart what I’m doing. Waiting on a guy like you- way out of my league- and hoping that one sunny day you might notice me as someone you somehow against all logic like from all of your heart.
Since that fantastic day I’d know your weakness, knew you’d be stupid and didn’t have a good taste, didn’t know that you’d deserve so much better. And maybe then I could lt you go. But what am I saying anyway? It won’t end up like this. You are there and I am here. And still am I waiting for this to change. No matter the amount of words. This does not make me love you less. Like I said, you are perfect to me.
Not long ago I regret what I had lost. With my entire heart I was hoping so desperatly that what was gone would come back.
Then I reached out for the future, knew excactly how it should be.
But now? Not the past nor the future do fascinate me anymore. All I know is the present and that’s annoyingly boring!
Cognitive Behavioural Therapy believes that we often feel anxious, upset or distressed because of certain common errors in our thinking. These are maladaptive ways of looking at life which are automatic – and therefore subconscious. However, if we can stop ……
The moment I saw him my heartbeat stopped for a while. I felt how all by the sudden my muscels became weak, how my knees would not be able to carry me much longer. It was just a moment I saw him, one single moment, but enough to remind me that I did not let him go yet, that from all that I know today I would be stupid to even try to replace him by someone who, and this is something I am very sure of, could never be as breathtaking, as amazing, as he already is. Now I don’t even know what to write next, what my intention was in the first place since my mind is all made up by the thought of how much I adore him, how much I miss him, how intense my feeling for him actually are. All I can say is, that I love him. I love him so much it sometimes scares me while on the other hand I never was as sure about someone as I am about him.